To be sick or not to be…that’s the question

Well it turns out that EIO (Estrogen in Oil) does a nice job of making you feel like you just might lose whatever it was you just ate.  There are quite the number of flu’s & colds going around, so I wasn’t sure if I was coming down with something.  Turns out…just another great side effect of all the hormones!  Oh yeah!!  I am wondering if what I am feeling now will be far worse than what I will feel like when I’m pregnant.  Cuz that is the goal, getting preg. and you tend to think that when you reach your goal all will be well.  BUT being preg. does not come symptom free.  I’m am so hoping that the symptoms I have will be less than what I’ve felt for the past month-and-a-half.

Well here’s to not throwing up…


Silver Linings

There are few things while TTC using ART, (Assisted Reproductive Technology) that are associated with “Silver Linings”.  I.  Have encountered one of them today…

Insurance covers the PIO (Progesterone in oil), syringes, and 22 g x 1.5″ needles! 

Yeah!!!! And the total bill for this round of prescriptions?  A grand total of $21.49.  Can I say yeah!!! again???  It’s so nice to know I only paid $21.49 to inflict pain and an itchy rash like redness on my butt/hip quadrant.

Technically it’s still Monday

Can I just say that I HATE Sunday nights and Monday’s and Monday nights. Well technically it’s Tuesday early morning but it doesn’t count.  The next day starts after I fall asleep.

Sunday night means the Hus leaves for a week, which leaves me stressed out and having a bit of separation anxiety.  Yeah I know we have played this game for about a year now, but I still hate it!  So, I end up sleeping in LATE on Monday because I don’t end up falling asleep till about 1 or 2 AM.  I get up around 1 PM, and then I don’t getting tired till..well…early Tuesday morning.

And since I actually do have someplace to be at 8:45 AM, I guess I shall resort to taking an Ambien.  No Mom, I am not taking them regularly just on the occasion.

The begining, the middle, the…

So, I’ve meant to sit down and write about this whole fertility business, but like everything else in my life it seems to get pushed off till later because taking a nap seems so much more important now. Or more like I can’t get through my day without taking one. One thing about all these hormones is they make you exhausted. It’s truly amazing how drained of energy you are. Ok let’s go back to the start off all this…

In April 2009 B and I got married and we decided that we would start trying for kids around December of that year. We knew we had some reproductive issues so we went to the fertility clinic and they pretty much told us we would never conceive without the help of a Dr. We were OK with that. So, in December we started the process of IVF w/ ICSI.  The twice a day shots were not bad, it was the 34 eggs that I was growing, that was the painful part. Imagine if you will, (ladies) you know how you get that crampy bloated feeling before you get your period cuz ONE egg is growing well imagine 34!  Tying your own shoes was not an option the last few days.  Well they harvested the eggs, fertilized them and watched them grow!  Sounds kinda like a chia-pet… They transferred two embryos back to me and the 2 week wait started.  On day 13 we went in for the beta (blood test) and we received less than thrilling news, our efforts were not successful.

Of course we decided that our goal is to have a child so we shall prevail and try again.  January will pretty much be spent getting my uterine lining up to thickness with twice week estrogen shots and a once a week visit to Dr. K.  The visit includes an interaction with the ultrasound machine (transvaginal ultrasound more specifically), a needle to check hormone levels, a visit with the nurse, and last but not least the swipe of the credit card.

So how does one get through all this?  How do you completely change your focus and focus almost ALL of your energy on TTC? (Try to Conceive)  And how do you do all of that on top of your Husband working out-of-town? (He’s gone from Monday morning till Friday afternoon) 

One way…Jesus Christ.